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Saturday 14 May 2016

Breaking up is so Hard



So, what threw me off my chair or feet if you may ask?

I’m in the office and this workmate of mine who we rarely talk except over tea or water at the kitchen just asked me randomly, amidst tears “have you ever been heartbroken”

Wait, I thought I became an expert in the field of heartbreaks and that I would know what to say but I was dumbfounded. Even before I managed to croak a “yes” she asked “If you have, what did you do? Because am in pain… it’s like a thorn in my flesh, and I can’t seem to have it removed”

Well, let’s just say I said all the wrong things, I couldn’t tell her why she had to get her heart broken again even after waiting for one and a half years, and I couldn’t tell her why it hurt more than the first. I just stood there looking at her crying and saying nothing at all.

I felt like a complete failure. Being in the shoes of a really bad break up, I thought would know exactly what to say because I’m living it every single day. But then the truth is you can never really have the right words to say. We may all be going through a break up and maybe you really hate your ex and you want them to fall off the face of the earth. Maybe you love your ex so much you want me to tell you how to get them back, they are all different. And let’s face it; I really don’t know what you are going through.

But what I really hope is that somehow you know that you’re never alone. Even if am saying words you don’t want to hear or words that cut you deep, I just want you to know that a stranger cares. Heck, I hope you even laugh at my misfortune and think, am way better off than she is. Look at me, am a late twenties woman still living with a man who has clearly moved on and has no respect whatsoever for me.

Yesterday too I couldn’t help my best friend. She told me something very sensitive and all I replied was “I don’t know what to say” and ‘I can’t help you”

She must really hurt.

But sometimes we never know what to say, and we don’t want to hurt those we love. We just hope that they will see our hearts and know we care enough to let them not see our pain too. We care enough and sometimes the best words are to be left unsaid.

My month has been weird, I must say. My ex, who I still live with, just started bringing his girlfriend over to the house right in my presence, hmmm. I am so done with holding pity parties for myself, I will just move along.

So, what threw me off my chair or feet if you may ask?

I’m in the office and this workmate of mine who we rarely talk except over tea or water at the kitchen just asked me randomly, amidst tears “have you ever been heartbroken”

Wait, I thought I became an expert in the field of heartbreaks and that I would know what to say but I was dumbfounded. Even before I managed to croak a “yes” she asked “If you have, what did you do? Because am in pain… it’s like a thorn in my flesh, and I can’t seem to have it removed”

Well, let’s just say I said all the wrong things, I couldn’t tell her why she had to get her heart broken again even after waiting for one and a half years, and I couldn’t tell her why it hurt more than the first. I just stood there looking at her crying and saying nothing at all.

I felt like a complete failure. Being in the shoes of a really bad break up, I thought would know exactly what to say because I’m living it every single day. But then the truth is you can never really have the right words to say. We may all be going through a break up and maybe you really hate your ex and you want them to fall off the face of the earth. Maybe you love your ex so much you want me to tell you how to get them back, they are all different. And let’s face it; I really don’t know what you are going through.

But what I really hope is that somehow you know that you’re never alone. Even if am saying words you don’t want to hear or words that cut you deep, I just want you to know that a stranger cares. Heck, I hope you even laugh at my misfortune and think, am way better off than she is. Look at me, am a late twenties woman still living with a man who has clearly moved on and has no respect whatsoever for me.

Yesterday too I couldn’t help my best friend. She told me something very sensitive and all I replied was “I don’t know what to say” and ‘I can’t help you”

She must really hurt.

But sometimes we never know what to say, and we don’t want to hurt those we love. We just hope that they will see our hearts and know we care enough to let them not see our pain too. We care enough and sometimes the best words are to be left unsaid.
My month has been weird, I must say. My ex, who I still live with, just started bringing his girlfriend over to the house right in my presence, hmmm. I am so done with holding pity parties for myself, I will just move along.

So, what threw me off my chair or feet if you may ask?

I’m in the office and this workmate of mine who we rarely talk except over tea or water at the kitchen just asked me randomly, amidst tears “have you ever been heartbroken”

Wait, I thought I became an expert in the field of heartbreaks and that I would know what to say but I was dumbfounded. Even before I managed to croak a “yes” she asked “If you have, what did you do? Because am in pain… it’s like a thorn in my flesh, and I can’t seem to have it removed”

Well, let’s just say I said all the wrong things, I couldn’t tell her why she had to get her heart broken again even after waiting for one and a half years, and I couldn’t tell her why it hurt more than the first. I just stood there looking at her crying and saying nothing at all.

I felt like a complete failure. Being in the shoes of a really bad break up, I thought would know exactly what to say because I’m living it every single day. But then the truth is you can never really have the right words to say. We may all be going through a break up and maybe you really hate your ex and you want them to fall off the face of the earth. Maybe you love your ex so much you want me to tell you how to get them back, they are all different. And let’s face it; I really don’t know what you are going through.

But what I really hope is that somehow you know that you’re never alone. Even if am saying words you don’t want to hear or words that cut you deep, I just want you to know that a stranger cares. Heck, I hope you even laugh at my misfortune and think, am way better off than she is. Look at me, am a late twenties woman still living with a man who has clearly moved on and has no respect whatsoever for me.

Yesterday too I couldn’t help my best friend. She told me something very sensitive and all I replied was “I don’t know what to say” and ‘I can’t help you”

She must really hurt.

But sometimes we never know what to say, and we don’t want to hurt those we love. We just hope that they will see our hearts and know we care enough to let them not see our pain too. We care enough and sometimes the best words are to be left unsaid.
    SOURCE: standard

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